Living It All 4 HIM!

Have you ever been in love? Have you ever loved someone so much that sometimes you forget to think about yourself because all you can think about is him? I know the feeling of being in love. It is amazing! He is on my mind everyday and just thinking about him brings joy into my life instantaneously. I don’t even have to try to think about him, as I breathe I think of him. It becomes natural. Everything I look at and every song I hear remind me of him. When everything else around me seems to be going wrong, thinking of him makes me feel so much better. The feeling is so intense that I can never forget how it feels. I constantly want him to know that I love him, I want to tell him that I love him and that I want him. I never mind driving hours just to see him, sometimes not even for long. I want to stay up late talking to him all night. Everything I do with him is romantic even if it brings pain later. Every time it hurts, I smile :) I don’t ever want to be far from him. It hurts like nothing I’ve felt before when I miss him. This is how it felt when I was in love. 

But tonight Jesus I feel the need to tell YOU how I truly feel about YOU at this moment in my life. Sometimes YOU aren’t the most important thing in the life that YOU gave me. However, I say so many times that I love YOU and that I am in a relationship with YOU. But Jesus I know that I can’t fool YOU. YOU are the one and only. I am so sorry for that. I am sorry for putting my education before YOU because YOU only give me this brain to use. I am sorry for chosen my family and friends over you so many time because I know that no one on earth is worth my salvation. I am sorry for cursing every now and then. I am sorry for judging others, I am sorry for lying. I am sorry for not giving enough, I am sorry for not being grateful and thankful. I am sorry for lacking conversation with YOU. I am so sorry Jesus…

I want to grow in love with YOU. I want to think that everything is possible when I think about YOUR unfailing love for me. I want to find myself wanting and waiting to talk to YOU and hear from YOU desperately. I want to long for YOU. I want to want to read YOUR words and I want to desire to worship YOU only. I want to enjoy YOU. I don’t want to do anything for YOU out of obligation, I don’t want it to feel like work. I want YOU to be my first thought when YOU allow me to open my eyes in the morning, I want to fall asleep every night as I think of YOU. I want to let YOU change me. I want YOU now Jesus!

I want YOU to help me grow in love with YOU. I want YOU to help me love others the same way I love YOU. Help me to want to tell others about YOU, to let everyone know about our relationship and how YOU love me, still. I need YOU Jesus, I want YOU. Help me focus only on YOU everyday of my lifetime. Everything is about YOU. I want YOU to change me. I want to find pleasure and true satisfaction in my relationship with YOU. Help me love YOU more than anything and anyone on this earth. When I think about YOUR love for me and YOUR kingdom help me to want to give up and sell everything in order to gain them because Jesus I know that the day that I stop loving and pursuing you, I will sin. I will do things and say things that do not reflect YOU. Don’t give me the opportunity to wonder…I need YOU, I want YOU, I want to grow in love with YOU :)

(Inspired after I read chapter 6 of Crazy Love for my Sunday school)

Love

9:Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good.

10:Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves.

11:Never be lacking in zeal, but keep you spiritual fervor, serving the Lord.

12:Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.

13:Share with God’s people who are in need. Practice hospitality.

14:Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse.

15: Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn.

16: live in harmony with one another. Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position. Do not be conceited.

17: Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everybody.

18: If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone.

19: Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: “It is mine to avenge; I will repay,” says the Lord.

20: On the contrary: “if your enemy is hungry, feed him; If he is thirsty, give him something to drink. In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his dead.”

21:Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

What is love?  What does it look like? How does it act?  Although people all over the world are looking for love, very few people understand it.  They can’t define it, and because of that they accept counterfeits. People today think that love can be discovered in words. Yet many people lie about their affections. Others believe it can be revealed in gifts. Yet, presents are often shallow expressions of guilt or manipulation instead of love. Still others think that it is a feeling. However, I don’t agree with that either.

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If I only loved when I felt like it, then I would not love often.  Let me suggest that love is more than a feeling, an emotion, or an expression, love is a commitment.  When you love someone you consider how your actions will affect them. You invest in that relationship, and you exhibit faithfulness. Oh, and one more thing, true love is not selfish. It is giving, caring, and encouraging.  True love doesn’t tear down, it builds up. It doesn’t take, but it gives. True love is willing to sacrifice for the other. That is the reason that the Bible says that the greatest expression of love ever recorded was when Christ willingly died upon the cross in your place. That is the most intense demonstration of commitment and love.  And, he did it for you.

-A Groundwire spot I heard on Klove radio station :)