Do you only live by hope and faith? Do you truly believe in miracles?
As I was reading the eighth chapter of Crazy Love by Francis Chan, it came to me that I am such a fool sometimes to think that I can take control of everything in my life.
Coming here to the USA, when I am sick with a cold or a severe headache guess what I do? I google my symptoms (Ha!) and then I decide to go to the doctor. When I am hungry, I run downstairs, open my fridge, 8 out 10 I wouldn’t like what is in there, so I drive to the restaurant. When I need a job, I update my application and send hundreds of emails to my connection. When I need more money, I call my parents or I ask for more hours at my job. When I am sad, I turn on my ‘happy’ music, or I’d go to the movies, or call a friend to cheer me up. When my grades aren’t looking good, I go to my teacher or advisor, or I just drop the class (can you relate?). When I am tired, I jump on my comfortable queen size bed, turn my fan on, put the music on and sleep. When there is really nothing I can do about it, then I decide to ask God to help me get through it.
All that to say that I come to realize that I rely too much on myself and this world. I am thinking what do I need God for then if I can handle all my problems and can manage to find a solution for all of them on my own? I want this to change. I want to live by hope and by faith, only. I want to believe in miracles again, and I want to trust God fully with whatever is going on in my life. Trust that he has been taking care of me, and that he will always be there for me no matter how many stupid mistakes I make.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
and do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make straight your paths.